releasing unto you my pain from the outside and the in.

I wake up to a pain that been torturing me from within for weeks now so without any knowing of what might come out right now in this text i take a risk at letting go of the past and grasping onto the future that may come or not so let us begin lately i struggle with physical and mental pain that i may not want to go on hiding anymore from my horrendous back pain that some day leaves me in bed immobile unable to even get up to answer the phone to the torturing thoughts that possess my mind from thinking of will close people wake up from the night before as they struggle day by day with cancer to personal bouts of depression that leave me wondering if i would even care if my eyes cease to open to see the light of another day so i grab pen and paper and release my pain into lyrics that some might question into songs that make others weep from second hand depression as they read the words that have been ripped from my chest to help them feel like they aren't the only ones so i leave you with the intro to my next post and intro to my newest song ---- if you were told that you wouldn't live to see tomorrow that the light at the end of the tunnel is closing in would you really be that sad ..............................................

the head it spins with dilusion

I start to think about things that happened or things that might happen in the not to distant future.
i sit up in the middle of the night un able to catch a glimpse of what sleeping could be like for the night.
when it finally occurs i slip into the altered state of mind
or is a dream is just a random mark up of of your subconsience
trying to let you know how your really feel when your guard isn't up or is it i ask this simply because weeks or months later i will be awake its a weekend and all of the sudden its like deja-vu then i realize this is the exact day i lived in a dream not to long ago pretty weird when a dream literally becomes reality and not something i consciously tried to do hm maybe something to sit n ponder

Introductions

So usually you would find in a blog titled "introductions" that any other person would go on pointlessly describing what there hobbies and like and dislikes are well being don't want to be trendy im not going to do that im here to post insights to uh persona while those things will have to come out eventually to explore the sub conscience I will save those to be gone over intricately the only thing i will tell you here is my name is George and that maybe in the next entry you will start to see the persona unfold.